Unconditional Love

It's been a month now and everything is still clear. You are happier now with somebody else, while here I am still struggling, collecting every piece of me and trying to stand again. I really don't know why I can't forget you. Your words, your smile and the way you looked at me are haunting me every night. I was crying every night as I see you in my dreams. How I wish I could make it last. The happy times we had together. I know that you are now in love with somebody else. But I can't stop myself to love you, over and over I fall. I guess you really teach me how to love unconditionally: "To love a person even if she cannot give you back the same amount of affection that you were giving her, and to love a person even if she was in love with somebody else." I know I still love you, even you are madly in love, unfortunately, with somebody else.(many would tell that's stupidity) But to tell the truth, I'm trying, I tried to forget you, but I just can't. I tried to pretend that I did not love you that much, a lie that cuts through my heart and soul. The physical pain I have experienced in my fraternal life cannot compare to the pain and suffering I was going through right now. But even I'm hurting, I need to be happy for you. As long as you are happy, then I should also feel happy. Only then would I truly show you that I love you, the same way that God loved us (But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Rom.5:8) I know someday, somehow, somewhere along the way I would also find my own happiness. I cannot find that without forgiveness and acceptance. "Forgiveness" for all our shortcomings, forgiveness for both of us because our relationship did not turn out the way we wanted it to be. "Acceptance" that everything would turn out right and both of us would finally found the happiness we have longing for. (Who knows, maybe someday we'll find our happiness in each others heart again) Right now, I'm in the process of forgiving myself for letting you go. I am trying to accept the harsh reality of life. As a final words, here's 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." Smile :)